i tried to recall this first time i knew him . fall in love with a man after love had been betrayed by the others , it's not easy to do . i realized i had fallen in love with him in almost 6 months we're knowing each others . i struggled for life with him . yes , finally i fell in love with man . but all what we want we'll not get it easily because of the obstacles and challenges that must be encountered . i want to tell him that i love him . he opened and changed my view on the race of adam . i admit sometimes i get jealous . if we're in love the feeling of jealousy must be there . but not to blind of jealousy , it will destroy our life and heart . although we've not in official relationship , but i've admit that i wish he will gonna be my boyfriend one day . but does it all become a reality ? i wonder everyday if we still have a chance to be together . still there ? though sometimes , there will be misunderstanding about my status on facebook , i try to tell him the truth . most of my status on facebook , i updated it for him . past 2 days , he made me smile even though i know , he's make a joked about it . i honestly gonna say now that i'm getting jealous now .
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