one minute you fall in love with a person that you think you know well and then everything you thought they were turned into something foreign , something to see in your dreams , something that kill you . most things you experience are temporary HAPPINESS IS TEMPORARY , PAIN LASTS A LIFETIME . i couldn't help but wonder why did i get into this SHIT HOLE again when i know how everything will turn out in the end . maybe there's always hope in everyone no matter how much of pessimistic person one is . maybe that's what made a fool out of us , the IDEA OF HOPE . the idea that maybe that person is going to be different . but what's so different about humans , if only their hearts are placed as a display unit , if only you can visually see where the heart lies . whether it's pure or simply PURE BULLSHIT . maybe that's not much of what we seek , maybe purity isn't all we wanted , maybe all we wanted was STAGNANT FEELINGS , unmoved , and if feelings were to even change THE SLIGHTEST BIT perhaps all we wanted was for it to be bigger , larger , BETTER . to the point of infinity but never the other way .
i wish i could say all the things that in my heart now but i can't and if there's the slightest chance you might read this i'm glad , it means you know that although i'm living my life . you still own a part of my mind . you're living in quite distance away and if someday we're bound to meet again then it's meant to be and if not , it's okay . you see , it'll be like out little thing , i'll think of you secretly and so will you . till then :]
#sorry for my hard english :) i'm trying my best to using it from my normal and before :) read it repeatly if you don't understand :]