sometimes being alone isn't that bad once you're used to it . and day goes by i'm adapting with lonesome . i've been spending time with myself for quite some time , i enjoy solitude . but there's not a day goes by without you on my mind . truth be hold , i miss you . it's rather odd to see myself like this over a guy . i guess she's not just some guy to me . we've known each other for almost 2 years i thought , but it only seems like yesterday . i remember talking to her on my land line for long hours . i remember how both of us laughed together . i remember how her voice when he's laughing . i remember she's being the person making me smile right after she made me frown . how those little things he did once before made my day . i remember her voice and how she spoke to me . i remember her everyday word . i remember all those things about me and her . that's legendary since my memory is always so wanky . i'm the happiest when i'm with her . i'm a selfish person but i always put her first before myself .
to live is to do thing a day that scares you and so i did , loving you that is . now i'm twice as hardcore as before , good for me bad for you .
one way to move on is to quit reminiscing back to the happy memories , it'll cut you . stop thinking about that person , it doesn't help . remind yourself that it's over . it's history , he/she moved on to someone else , you should too . don't cry because he's/she's not worth it . tell me that it's easier said than done , i know it's hard but if i can write all these and learning to take my own advice why can't you ? time will heal . you don't deserve so much better . it's not your fault , it never was as you're done almost everything to her/him , you've put her/him first before yourself , so quit blaming yourself . it's her/his lost , not yours .
don't ever ask me how i'm doing , i'm living , i'm fine , so hush .
no more sad pathetic posts :)
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